for the last years i have been someone who tried to control everything. i always wanted to know in detail what was going on, i wanted to be in control. nothing unexpected should happen. i was always really scared that something could happen different than i planned it to be. i behaved like this because of fear. i was simply scared of anything possible and in 99% there were absolutely no reason to be afraid.
with my behavior i made it impossible to go with the flow of life, living life to the fullest was nothing i ever experienced because of my fear and my need to control. it stressed me out, depressed me and made me very unhappy. i could not imagine to ever live a fearless life no matter what, it was a devastating thought but i guess i just accepted it at one point.
a lot has changed since i were this person and i am beyond grateful that i am no longer this overly scared and controlling being i was back then. i learned to trust the universe and the flow of life – one of the best decisions i ever made.
my trust in the universe came to me in the past 3 month. but there was one moment where i actually realized what the flow of life is and what it means – and i want to share this with you.
as you may know i flew to croatia at the beginning of august this year. the day before i watched a youtube video by annie tarasova which is called, surprise, “The Flow of Life”. she talks about a moment she had in new zealand where she realized similar things as i did. i were really inspired by the video and understood what she was talking about – but my mind couldn’t really grab it.
so i sat in the airplane and i am normally really feared when it comes to flying. but this time i was okey, i just listened to music and watched out of the window. we flew through many clouds as the weather in germany was really bad. but then – after i guess 20 or 30 minutes we broke through the thick clouds and as i watched through the window i was looking directly into the sun. sunshine on my face. the picture above was taken a few minutes after this moment, it shows what i saw in that moment.
i were so high above the ground, i had not even a single bit of control over my situation. i was flying, something humans aren’t even supposed to do. but i was completely safe. i felt safe and i knew i were.
the thing is: no matter what you do, you never really are in control. the universe is in control – always. the universe decides what is going to happen next, you can make all the plans you want. plan out every little detail. but at the end its the universe who signs, or not signs, your plans and follows them through. what i am trying to say is, there is no point in planning and controlling because planning and controlling is just an illusion humans made up.
i am not saying you should just live in the day and wait what will happen. no of course you should plan your days, decide what you are going to do. but don’t put too much wait on your plans actually happening. maybe they will, maybe they won’t. and its all fine, its all perfect. planning is the one thing, but stop controlling. stop being paranoid and excessive about your plans. it will kill your happiness. you kill your freedom and you destroy your connection with the universe.
if you are happy, if you are full of love – you will attract only this in your life. if your mind is in peace – there is nothing to fear. so many of us are constantly in a state of fear, anger, hate, judgement. this way we are never going to live a happy life. you need to let go of negative emotions. you need to fill up yourself with love, passion, happiness and most important: trust. trust that the universe knows what is right in that very moment. everything happens for a reason.
i know – there happen things which don’t seem fair. things that cause you pain. but at the end – everything brings you to a brighter place. there were so many moments in my life were just didn’t understood why i deserved this much pain, but look at me now. i am so thankful for everything that happened because it brought me where i am now. as i am saying, the universe – in the end – always does the right thing for you. maybe it takes time to come to the good point, but you will.
if you start trusting, you will feel so much relieve. you will be able to finally appreciate your life without thinking about what could go wrong. if you think about what could go wrong – you will attract this into your life. if you trust – you attract what you need and desire.
just think about the fact that we are in this huge universe, enormous galaxy. literally floating through space warmed by a giant ball which is on fire. night and day, seasons, sun, rain, wind. everything happens in the right time. everything works well – because the universe is able to do this. if the earth spins in exactly the right and exactly the right motion, why should we every be worry that something for us won’t work? we are so small compared to the earth, compared to everything around us. there is no need to worry. there is no problem big enough to ever bring you down. no problem that is worth your unhappiness.